November 3, 2017 (Friday)

November 2, 2018

The point – or at least a point – is to kick something loose when I write here. Sometimes (perhaps often), however, I come in with a thought already formed, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing; it’s not like we’re blank slates. Often it then lets me start, and then riff, and then kick something […]

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November 2, 2017 (Thursday)

November 1, 2018

I was thinking about how awkward all of my social exchanges have become in the wake of the 2016 election and subsequent politics, and it occurred to me that I keep castigating myself for running away from (and cutting off) “friendships,” but that it’s actually also a case of me avoiding the possibility that “friends” […]

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November 1, 2017 (Wednesday)

October 31, 2018

Well, in the end I put up all the Halloween things, except for the fake cobwebs (which I actually found a bag of in the box downstairs). We distributed several hundred candies (and ate a dozen, at least I did). Early in the evening, J. stopped by. I didn’t even see it was him – […]

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October 31, 2017 (Tuesday)

October 30, 2018

I wonder whether I’ve been doing these morning pages for a year yet? I had this idea of blogging them one year “late,” but to the day, as a deliberate rebuke to the “instant” flavor of blogging, of the internet now. Then I moved completely away from that, and now I’m thinking about it again, […]

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October 30, 2017 (Monday)

October 29, 2018

It’s not quite Halloween, but we definitely had a massively scary powerful storm last night. It raged through the whole night and its straggling remains still blow hither and yon, even in the blazing sunshine breaking through cloud gaps this morning. The clouds look like they’ve been in a fight, and now, in daylight bright, […]

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October 29, 2017 (Sunday)

October 28, 2018

We got up really late today; still, I feel tired. Physically and mentally plateaued. Neither moving forward nor backward, yet knowing at the same time that feeling like this means that one is actually declining, moving backwards. If you feel like you’re standing still, you’re not – it’s an impossibility, there is no standstill; you’re […]

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October 28, 2017 (Saturday)

October 27, 2018

Energy. Where does it come from, how can you have more? Today I meditated just before sitting down to write these morning pages – it’s the weekend, and I have more time. As I was doing the exercise, I felt a sense of energy …but also of quietude. In fact, it occurred to me that, […]

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October 27, 2017 (Friday)

October 26, 2018

Yesterday it was dark as coal dust all morning, and the rain poured forth from above. Today, it’s clear, bright, sunny, crisp, and dry. It’s almost like it’s an altogether different day. Oh, wait… Well, okay, it is a different day, but what does that actually mean, anyway? In a way, we perceive time as […]

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October 26, 2017 (Thursday)

October 25, 2018

Second day in a row of dark rainy weather as we wake up. The desk lamp is on. It’s odd, but I feel almost personally insulted in the wake of seeing on Twitter a post by Jordan B. Peterson: a photo of a poster which some anonymous people have been putting up in the Toronto […]

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October 25, 2017 (Wednesday)

October 24, 2018

On October 25, 1975 I was (temporarily) back in Victoria, and staying at my parents’ apartment on Fort Street. It was 75ºF that day. At the time, I made a note of it, commenting on how insanely summery it was. Today, October 25, 2017, I look out on the first truly wet day we’ve had […]

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