July 11, 2017 (Tuesday)

July 10, 2018

Rain. Thick, heavy cloud cover. A drop in temperature, but still threatening heat above that blanket. The trees lapping up the rain torrents, growing thicker, taller. House roofs mostly obscured, roof tiles wet where still visible. The roar of traffic affected by rain: it’s even louder. Just now, a half-second of silence as a break […]

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July 10, 2017 (Monday)

July 9, 2018

I sit down this morning without any preconceived idea what to write about, so unlike many other mornings when something that happened or I’ve read about or seen already arises in my mind, demanding attention. The morning is cool – I almost want to say “sepulchral,” but that’s only because I already feel entombed. Or […]

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July 9, 2017 (Sunday)

July 8, 2018

Tomorrow is Monday, and our “vacation” schedule ends. We’ll return to the stress of catching early morning trains, etc. Yesterday was Saturday, and for me the day started with tears. I found myself very depressed at breakfast, and told W. so. A. was there and took the whole thing in, too. Then he said something […]

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July 8, 2017 (Saturday)

July 7, 2018

I’m not in a very equanimous space right now. I’m angry, I’m depressed. I’ve spent this past week of pretty weather – just for a change, we actually had consistently good weather – hacking my guts out and having non-fever fever sweats, doing double laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, and listening to both A. and […]

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July 7, 2017 (Friday)

July 6, 2018

My mind feels like it was flayed (or something very like) over this past week. It was, in name, a vacation week. So our routines were not routines of workweek – we slept as long as we wanted (or, more accurately, could), we tried to cook and dine in a weekend manner, but it wasn’t […]

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July 6, 2017 (Thursday)

July 5, 2018

I set myself this task, during meditation, as a kind of experiment. It’s about strengthening my ability to stay focused on the breath and not letting my mind wander too much. When I relax my face, my mouth naturally droops at the corners. Lately I’ve noticed the lines this creates getting more etched. So I […]

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July 5, 2017 (Wednesday)

July 4, 2018

It’s the day after a major holiday, and all the rush hour traffic noise is back. It actually makes me hate summer even more because in this season my windows are open. The racket is inescapable. And furthermore, it’s actually lovely summer weather for a change – temperate, almost, and low humidity, plus cooled-off (sort […]

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July 4, 2017 (Tuesday)

July 3, 2018

So now I, too, am sick with this China bug A. imported via R., and it’s an ugly fucker. I can feel it chiseling its way into my sinuses, not to mention that my throat feels like pavement that’s been graded / abraded in preparation for repaving with hot tar. The top part of my […]

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July 3, 2017 (Monday)

July 2, 2018

Now W. and I have both come down with this bug with which A. was – still is – sick. He probably got it in Berlin from R., who picked it up in China. International travel, globalization – you can’t beat it. W. was really grumpy yesterday, coming down with it hard by late afternoon. […]

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July 2, 2017 (Sunday)

July 1, 2018

It looks like it’s going to be boiling hot today and that we’ll be turning on the A/C again later. Early this morning the upstairs registered 78ºF, downstairs 76ºF. Now it’s climbing, climbing to who knows where. I don’t know… I’m not a fan of summers here. The humidity blows. And I don’t care if […]

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