by Yule Heibel

Still feeling strange, somehow alienated from myself and my life. Worst of all, I get the sense this is not a new or recent emotion. It has either been there all along, or has festered for a long time. I kind of hope it’s the former, because I can almost accept alienation as a condition […]

Strange dreams involving flight and escapes, busy roads, rivers (large bodies of water, anyway), bridges, pedestrian overpasses (and maybe some underpasses?)… Other people. At one weirdly salient point, I was sneaking past my long-dead father’s back. He was leaning on a bridge railing, looking over the large body of water, and I ran past him […]

Let’s see how far I get into these pages this morning. Set the alarm for 6:10am, got up, all the usual things, made coffee, etc., then meditated, now writing. Why so early? I’m driving W. to the station for an early train (7:28, iirc): he has two interviews in Cambridge, one starting at 9am, the […]

We didn’t get as much snow as forecast, but what we got was incredibly solid, wet, heavy. We shoveled by hand at 4pm, when the wind was still howling and the snow was changing over to sleet. It felt like needles on skin every time you faced it. Since I’ve decided that I hate the […]