March 3, 2017 (Friday)

March 2, 2018

A thought arose regarding the shallow grave. It had something to do also with a remark about mind, made by David Gelernter in an interview with Conor Friedersdorf in The Atlantic. He said something about one of Coetzee’s characters, the character’s mental level, the issue of thinking passively and in pictures (visually) as opposed (I […]

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March 2, 2017 (Thursday)

March 1, 2018

An acorn on the forest floor under the trees, struggling – as acorns would be – to catch the stray beams of sunshine breaking through the canopy. The acorn feels itself on the cusp of something real: ready to sprout, to shoot, to unfurl. The forest is also home to wild boar which rampage through […]

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March 1, 2017 (Wednesday)

February 28, 2018

The meditation thing has been difficult the last little while. The focus, the intention – it’s all very amorphous-seeming, not focused, not especially intentional. It could be a phase, it could be all the things going on, external and not-so-external to my immediate life. W.’s job search is on-going, so far not turning up the […]

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February 28, 2017 (Tuesday)

February 27, 2018

While I was meditating on my intention and on what I appreciate most in my life right now, I felt this (brief) sense of purpose around connecting my life (all the history, all the little bits of it), and also – for some reason – I thought of my sluggishly-running computer, whose main browser seems […]

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February 27, 2017 (Monday)

February 26, 2018

Is it really Monday again this morning? Seems like time is flying by, but not necessarily in a good way. I’m caught (or feel I am) on an interminable loop. It goes ’round and ’round, but doesn’t actually go anywhere. No straight lines, just circles. Obviously, this sense of futility doesn’t pair well with my […]

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February 26, 2017 (Sunday)

February 25, 2018

One day bleeds into the next as my morning routines, now unencumbered by obligations around W., getting him to the train station, etc., fall into a steady, self-determined rhythm. I find it quite calming. I’m not sure why I let obligations to others, even when they’re unvoiced, unformulated, unwritten, even unexpected, destabilize me so easily. […]

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February 25, 2017 (Saturday)

February 24, 2018

I’m seething with emotion – anger, frustration, a kind of dead-lift into ennui. Outside my window, a fog as deep and dense as my mental dullness smothers houses and horizons. It replaces the quite different meteorological situation of yesterday, although my emotional, roiling turmoil has stayed the same. Perhaps it started – or at least […]

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February 24, 2017 (Friday)

February 23, 2018

E. leaves today. We’ll drive her to the airport at 12:30 or so. It’s an international flight, so I guess we should be there at least 90 minutes before departure. I feel somewhat conflicted about her leaving, although I’m happy for her that she’s going back to where she wants to be right now and […]

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February 23, 2017 (Thursday)

February 22, 2018

Perhaps the key to a kind of wisdom is understanding that it’s not such a great thing to think, “There’s so much I want to do,” but rather understanding that it’s better when you feel, fully, that “There’s one thing I want to do,” and to let many – should it turn out that way […]

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February 22, 2017 (Wednesday)

February 21, 2018

Feeling somewhat flatter than the wobbly-clouded enrobed sky this morning. Things feel difficult, and I guess in the overall scheme of things, that’s not exactly unusual or earthshaking. Difficult might even be too strong a word. Flat. But at the same time, flat as in “there’s no point in getting too deeply [sic!] into it,” […]

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