February 21, 2017 (Tuesday)

February 20, 2018

The “squirrel mind” was very active during this morning’s meditation, ranging from aspirations about cleaning up and even remodeling the basement (taking out the dropped ceiling, e.g.) to proposing a dance club at Local Vision. Two grackles – I call them that even if I’m not really sure they are grackles – just landed on […]

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February 20, 2017 (Monday)

February 19, 2018

Yesterday was so freakishly warm pretty much everywhere in the Eastern and Midwestern US as well as Canada, it was… well, not frightening, exactly, because it felt so comfortable (for now). But weird. We drove to Cambridge to take in, finally, Mount Auburn Cemetery. “Take in” is utterly the wrong formulation. It’s a huge park, […]

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February 19, 2017 (Sunday)

February 18, 2018

An occasional and frankly unpleasant side effect of having E. here is being reminded of all the failures in my own relationship with my mother. E’s “shortcomings” I re-live as my shortcomings as a daughter. My (current) “shortcomings” as a mother to E. I perceive and re-live as my mother’s shortcomings as a mother (except, […]

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February 18, 2017 (Saturday)

February 17, 2018

Just because W. very casually threw out the name of Chelsea, the city abutting Boston’s north edge (a city into which the Silver Line extension will move), something he did as an “for example” off-hand comment, as in “If I did work for that company located near South Station, we’d have to move in closer […]

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February 17, 2017 (Friday)

February 16, 2018

Today we’re driving to Portland to pick up E. I’m looking forward to it, obviously, to seeing her, and at the same time I’m strangely aware that she is now always just a visitor. This makes me sad. Happy-sad: happy to have her here for a few days, sad that she’ll be “split” while here, […]

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February 16, 2017 (Thursday)

February 15, 2018

I am stunned by the sight beyond my window: a plush, velvety expanse of whiteness, of fresh fat snow covers every surface, from the tiniest branches of leaf-bare trees – now magnified by their enrobement to thrice their size – to the comparatively vast square footage of roofs below me. And this plushness fills the […]

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February 15, 2018 (Wednesday)

February 14, 2018

Sometime during the night I developed a headache. It stayed with me all night, and now it’s morning and still gnawing at my skull, setting off sharp bursts of IEDs hither and yon. I seriously think it started with my teeth. I put some whitening / bleaching agent in my retainers last night, and the […]

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February 14, 2017 (Tuesday)

February 13, 2018

It’s Valentine’s Day on a Tuesday-god-of-war-day. But so far nothing untoward (except a very loud “crack!” sound coming from somewhere in the house’s framing, early, while we were still drowsing in bed): the sun is out, everything is brilliantly and sharply lit, the snow is a picture of innocence. I have pulled the blind down […]

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February 13, 2017 (Monday)

February 12, 2018

Snow, snow, snow… so much snow. I asked A. yesterday how much he has to shovel when it snows in Montreal, and he replied, just the walkway. What about the sidewalk, I asked. Oh, the city does that, he answered. Imagine… It’s 8:20am, and down below me on [state route] I see what for a […]

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February 12, 2017 (Sunday)

February 11, 2018

Feeling less “squirrel-y” this morning, in part I think because of some things in David Moldawer’s Maven Game newsletter yesterday (which I also forwarded to B.). He writes about hard work, lots of work – as a writer – but that, essentially, you’re writing the same story over and over and over again until it […]

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