May 12, 2017 (Friday)

May 11, 2018

I need to step away from the mainstream media news and from Twitter. Trump’s latest actions (particular case in point: firing Comey) have so enraged the pundits that it’s November election all over again. The speculation, the outrage, the forensic analyses, etc., are all so intense and furious – it’s like a manufactured maelstrom pulling […]

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May 11, 2017 (Thursday)

May 10, 2018

This morning, getting up with a headache (tension) after sleeping fitfully through the second half of the night, I feel beaten. I feel my life not as something grand, but small. I guess it’s the exhaustion. Yesterday was a bitch of a day. Somehow I felt jet-lagged the entire day. And I didn’t get any […]

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May 10, 2017 (Wednesday)

May 9, 2018

Last night I went to the first-ever non-New York City “Women of Letters” event at American Repertory Theater’s Oberon Theater venue, brought to Boston by the Boston Book Festival people. It started at 7:30p.m., doors opening at 7. The venue I found terribly uncomfortable: very small, rickety and chintzy folding chairs (the slatted wood kind, […]

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May 9, 2017 (Tuesday)

May 8, 2018

Oh brrr. Well, that was a mistake. I couldn’t bear to leave the heat on this late in May, and consequently I’m sitting in a room that has a temperature of 58ºF. It’s cold. There is hoar frost on the roof below me. Yesterday I decided to work on some reading / book notes (Sexual […]

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May 8, 2017 (Monday)

May 7, 2018

Pangs of regret coming from I-don’t-know-where. Perhaps sparked by something A. said in our Skype conversation yesterday, about yet another long walk he had taken that day in Berlin, and now, me, getting up at just before 6a.m., doing my thing, sitting down to write, looking out at this ever-expanding immensity of leaf cover, of […]

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May 7, 2017 (Sunday)

May 6, 2018

Last night I put on headphones, to shut out the movie W. was watching in the next room, and powered through emails and open tabs. Inbox zero, zero tabs open on my laptop, only two on my phone (and there’s redundancy, insofar as one is in German, the other English: both Wikipedia, about Heiner Müller’s […]

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May 6, 2017 (Saturday)

May 5, 2018

It was with great dismay yesterday that I faced the reality of the enormous gap between where I am and where I want to be with regard to writing a novel. I compared my word count – and I counted my “research” folder as well, which does contain many descriptions, some dialogs, scenes, and characterizations […]

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May 5, 2017 (Friday)

May 4, 2018

One of the problems (utterly self-created) with restricting my journaling to Morning Pages – the three-page limit – is that there’s so much I leave out. And I might spend half a page (of the three)  or even more on relative banalities to “rev” myself up, as it were, so that cuts into the available […]

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May 4, 2017 (Thursday)

May 3, 2018

Sometimes, when I sit down at my desk, the scent of incense I bought in a “Tibetan” store in Cambridge and which I keep on my desk wafts up. There are two kinds: one, the ubiquitous Nag Champa, which I love, and the second, a traditional kind I love even more but whose name I’ve […]

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May 3, 2017 (Wednesday)

May 2, 2018

The sun is up and out, brightly. Now however the leafed-out trees screen its immediate reach, breaking the light, refracting it into a rather glorious play of green and gold. Yesterday I barely made it out of the house. Worked all morning, had an eleven o’clock breakfast, during which I began to get caught up […]

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