May 16, 2017 (Tuesday)

May 15, 2018

The trees are closing in on my view. In my view as well. Their canopies have thickened and spread remarkably, their height has bounded and leapt upwards. They are green, various shades of it, and last night, when the sun had finally come out in the afternoon, their tops were painted gold by the last […]

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May 15, 2017 (Monday)

May 14, 2018

Hello, and here we are again on a Monday, 6a.m. It’s not what I prefer, to be up this early. And it’s cold. The living room thermostat reads 61ºF. So I put the heat back on, although by Wednesday we’ll hit 80ºF. It’s no good, though, is it, if heat is somewhere else when you’re […]

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May 14, 2017 (Sunday)

May 13, 2018

Today, during meditation, I had a very strong feeling that I do always expect someone to “rescue” me. Now, I’m unsure what this feeling actually meant, but I suspected it was prompted, somehow, by today being Mother’s Day. At the same time, I sort of “knew” that it wasn’t my actual mother on whom I […]

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May 13, 2017 (Saturday)

May 12, 2018

This week that is ending has really been a washout in most ways. Sometimes it really feels like nothing moves, which makes me wonder whether any sense of “movement,” when it is experienced, is merely an illusion. Maybe there’s only monadic hopping, from point to point. Each point is a Yoda-ish “do.” But what about […]

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May 12, 2017 (Friday)

May 11, 2018

I need to step away from the mainstream media news and from Twitter. Trump’s latest actions (particular case in point: firing Comey) have so enraged the pundits that it’s November election all over again. The speculation, the outrage, the forensic analyses, etc., are all so intense and furious – it’s like a manufactured maelstrom pulling […]

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May 11, 2017 (Thursday)

May 10, 2018

This morning, getting up with a headache (tension) after sleeping fitfully through the second half of the night, I feel beaten. I feel my life not as something grand, but small. I guess it’s the exhaustion. Yesterday was a bitch of a day. Somehow I felt jet-lagged the entire day. And I didn’t get any […]

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May 10, 2017 (Wednesday)

May 9, 2018

Last night I went to the first-ever non-New York City “Women of Letters” event at American Repertory Theater’s Oberon Theater venue, brought to Boston by the Boston Book Festival people. It started at 7:30p.m., doors opening at 7. The venue I found terribly uncomfortable: very small, rickety and chintzy folding chairs (the slatted wood kind, […]

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May 9, 2017 (Tuesday)

May 8, 2018

Oh brrr. Well, that was a mistake. I couldn’t bear to leave the heat on this late in May, and consequently I’m sitting in a room that has a temperature of 58ºF. It’s cold. There is hoar frost on the roof below me. Yesterday I decided to work on some reading / book notes (Sexual […]

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May 8, 2017 (Monday)

May 7, 2018

Pangs of regret coming from I-don’t-know-where. Perhaps sparked by something A. said in our Skype conversation yesterday, about yet another long walk he had taken that day in Berlin, and now, me, getting up at just before 6a.m., doing my thing, sitting down to write, looking out at this ever-expanding immensity of leaf cover, of […]

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May 7, 2017 (Sunday)

May 6, 2018

Last night I put on headphones, to shut out the movie W. was watching in the next room, and powered through emails and open tabs. Inbox zero, zero tabs open on my laptop, only two on my phone (and there’s redundancy, insofar as one is in German, the other English: both Wikipedia, about Heiner Müller’s […]

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